Sorry for not blogging all weekend. This has been a very interesting weekend. *this might get a little wordy so bear with me and there will be plenty of pictures later*

Friday night I was feeling really bad. Not sick but sad and frustrated and lonely.

I have been going to the same barn on Saturdays for over 10 years and the people there are practically my family. When I came back from Colorado I had discovered a lot about myself, who I want to be, weight loss, etc. I tried to explain this to them, they mean so much to me it was only natural to want to share what I learned with them the Β same way I did with my mom. But as I was explaining to them how I learned that I don’t feel the need to change the world or write novels (which we have sort of jokingly talked about) but that I just want to help a few people and be happy, I was met with blank eyes. The kind of eyes that say “I can’t relate at all to what you are saying to me but I am going to smile and pretend that I do so I won’t hurt your feelings.” It hurt, not that they didn’t understand that’s not their fault, but that these people who mean so much to me can’t understand this huge and really important thing that happened to me and they can’t relate to the things I learned from it.

In Colorado I discovered this part of myself that really wanted to be more spiritual. I think that it was always there but it just became louder out there. When I say spiritual I don’t mean like going to church on Sunday kind of spiritual (although I have nothing at all against going to church or mosque, or temple) I mean Eat, Pray, Love kind of spiritual. This isn’t the kind of thing most 16 year olds are faced with so I had no idea what to do with this desire to meditate and learn more about the spiritual side of myself.

So there I was 11:00 pm Friday night on the couch with my mom bawling my eyes out. I felt really lonely and bored with my life. I missed backpacking where every day had meaning and I grew as a person. I know that I can’t have that everyday but I wanted to have it sometimes. Then mom mentioned that there is a Buddhist Sangha that met in an Unitarian Church about 20 minutes from my house. At first I thought, “I can’t be a Buddhist” but the idea of being able to really meditate and learn how to do it right with people who were also interested in meditation really stuck in my mind.

Fast forward to Sunday at 7:00 at night. There I was sitting in the basement of this church with a bunch of mis-matched people from all walks of life meditating and reading the Noble Eightfold Path.

It was a new experience and I really know almost nothing about Buddhism but I loved it and should you be in that church next Sunday at 7 you’d probably see me. I don’t know how it will fit into my life when school starts but if I find that it is really something that matters to me I know I can make it work.

So I know that was quite wordy so let’s get onto the food!

Rather than explain everything I’ve eaten since Friday I will simply show you…

Friday

Saturday

My very first Vegan Overnight Oats! With pumpkin, cinnamon, crasins, raisins, and almond butter!

Elementary school lunch! PB&J, sugar snap peas (with nutritional yeast), and applesauce.

Veggies, tomato sauce, and polenta (its hiding under the veggies)

Sunday

My Sunday Tradition: made with white flour and all! Protein powder is the only remotely healthy thing about these beauties!

Today

Bio :/

Mmmm my favorite standby lunch πŸ™‚

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Oh! By the way, I know I haven’t been updating on my weigh-ins lately what with trips and stuff, but I lost .8 pounds this week. Not to bad. I think I have been gaining major muscle but I am trying to lower my calories a little bit so I can get back into the routine of consistently losing weight!

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Hey everybody! It’s Friday!!

I am so ready for the weekend. Not much is happening for me, but I won’t have to sit around alone all day so that’s a plus. And I’m getting new running shoes! I have needed them forever and I am finally going to get them! Yipee!

Breakfast today was the same as always… raisin bran with some banana, strawberries and blueberries, and green tea.

This morning’s run was ok but its was already almost 80 degrees when I got out at 8:45 so I was HOT!

My morning snack was half a Flatout with some almond butter and honey and a light Baby Bel cheese.

I love these Flatouts they are so versatile and healthy!

Lunch was an almond butter, banana, and honey sandwich on low-carb bread, ( I added some cinnamon and sugar for good luck :P)

Mmm… so sweet and delicious!

and some peaches, blueberries, cherries, 0% greek yogurt, and 1% cottage cheese with a little bit o’ honey πŸ˜›

You can’t see the cottage cheese and yogurt but I promise it’s in there!

For dessert ( you gotta have something sweet after lunch!) I had 2 of these babies

They are my go-to lunch time dessert because they are super crunchy, just the right amount of sweet, and only 25 calories per cookie!

My pre-workout snack came later than usual because I fell asleep for an hour and a half this afternoon! I have no idea why but I was super tired today.

My snack was another 80 calorie yogurt, I love these so they will probably be around for awhile, in a very interesting and yummy flavor: coconut pineapple.

with that I had the other half of the Flatout from this morning with a 35 calorie garlic and herb Laughing Cow wedge, arugula, and tomatoes.

I rolled it up, and it was so creamy and delicious! (please excuse the little hair in the picture… :P)

My run at the gym was unexpectedly exciting because I got there at 6:10 and then realized that the gym changed its hours and now closes at 7:00 on Fridays! So I had to try to fit a normally 60 minute run into a 40 time slot! But I burned my 1000 calories for the day so all was well in the end πŸ™‚

My mom got me flax seed today so I was super excited to try it out with dinner!

which was… an omelet with onions, red pepper, sun-dried tomatoes, 1/2 a soy sausage, arugula, some flax seed, and another Laughing Cow wedge

and a 100 calorie sandwich flat. I had half with margarine and honey and half with almond butter and honey because I couldn’t decide which I wanted and who says I can’t have both!

I also had a little salad with that because you can never have to many veggies! ( I put some flax in this too!)

For dessert I am going to have a Vitabrownie (<3) with some peanut butter. I have had this for dessert almost every night for what seems like forever. I heart Vitabrownies (and muffins)!

So that’s just another exciting day in the life of Elli!

I will check in tomorrow with my new running sneaks! And I might try to make a green monster tomorrow or Sunday since I have seen so much talk about them and I really want to try it! I just need to get kale, but I’m going to Whole Foods tomorrow so I can pick some up!

Enjoy your weekends everyone!

Elli