Hello friends!

I am officially back to school now but I think I am still in major denial about it. We have off today because of Rosh Hashanah so it feels like summer still. I go back for Friday then it the weekend. It’s a bit of a funky way to start school again…

Yesterday I got home and I was so tired. I forgot how exhausting school is! I love my schedule this year although I know that this is going to be an extremely stressful year considering I am taking 3 AP classes and 2 honors classes! I think I will enjoy AP Psych and AP Bio but who knows what the year holds!

I already have a 25 page chapter to read for monday in honors history, I opened the book to get a head start and just seeing all those words was so depressing!

😥

We had the same book last year for US 1 so it like this old enemy that I did not miss at all this summer!

Because it has been awhile since I blogged I though it would be easiest to just fly through the food from the last few days rather than try to tell you about all of it!

Rice and Veggies!

Pineapple Coconut is an oddly delicious flavor

Chocolate and strawberry VOO!! to die...

a very nosey kitty... not food but so cute!

some heavenly fruit and greek yogurt

Rye vita cracker with light laughing cow cheese is a great after-school snack!

So there it is! I hope that once school gets under way I will find time to blog! I know I will make something work because I am not going stop completely but I don’t know how it will work out especially with volleyball all fall (so many double “l”s!).

xoxo

E

That basically describes my relationship with food right now. Food and I have always had something of a rocky relationship. I mean food is how I got to a place in my life where 30+ pounds needed to be lost. So obviously I love food.

But hate food? You might ask. How can you hate food? You have a food blog for goodness sake! Well… there are days like today, when I just don’t feel like thinking about what I’m going to eat or really feel like eating at all. I have to because I get hungry and I have to eat but sometimes it can be hard always having to think about how many calories are in whatever I might eat and if I can eat it. That is if whatever I want to eat is not too high in calories. I think about that before pretty much every meal and it gets tiring. Sometimes I wish there was just some magic pill that had 1600 calories in it and would keep from getting hungry all day so I could just not eat, and not have to think about eating…

This is maybe the only reason why I want school to start. Because right now (summer) my days seem to revolve around food. During school though my days will revolve around other things. So yeah I’d say that for now food and I are total frenimies.

Part of this change may be because I am basically on a liquid diet right now. Why? One word: braces. That’s right I got my braces tightened yesterday and they freakin’ HURT!!!! My poor teeth got manhandled yesterday. Now even with prescription strength Aleve they still hurt too much to chew pretty much anything.

Here is some of what I have eaten the last day and a half:

Uber-choclately overnight oats

Pumpkin greek yogurt (did not taste as good as it sounds/what I wanted it to taste like 😦 )

Green Monster SIAB

Oatmeal : Quick cook steel cut oats (from TJs), smashed banana, applesauce, cottage cheese, almond butter, flax seeds, a few crasins (they hurt but I needed something solid gosh darn it!)

Yes they all tasted good (except for that yogurt: can you say unsatisfying), but I miss solid food! I want something crunchy! 😥

Today is my day off from exercise so I am a little more crabby/whiney than normal… I need the break though.

The Versatile Blogger Award!

Sam over at A Teenage Gourmet was kind enough to give me the versatile blogger award. So here it is 7 random, mind-blowing facts you didn’t know about me…

1.) I hate the ocean, lakes, bays, basically any natural bodies of water. I like to look at them and maybe swim in them a little but they CREEP ME OUT!!!! There are so many weird bugs, fish, animals, and who-knows-what-else in them. They just freak me out… 😛

2.) I am terrible with electronics, computers, etc. My mom knows more about my computer than I do. Perfect example: You know how you can have like “click here” and if you click there it will take you too a new site… yeah I have no idea how to do that. If anyone wants to tell me I’m willing to learn but make sure its clear and as simple as possible because you are working with a beginner here.

*correction: Yay I know how to do this now!*

3.) I love to paint my nails. I almost always have them painted. And I love odd colors too. Not your basic reds and pinks. My favorite nail polish is pastel purple. Right now I am wearing turquoise. I love purples, greens, blues, and orange. Having some funky color on my nails just makes me happy. And if for some reason I don’t have a color on I have clear polish on.

4.) I collect Snowbabies. You know those little white porcelain babies from Hallmark. My mom gets me one every Christmas. I think they are the cutest things ever. Useless? Yup! But I love ’em!

5.) I am really organized and orderly. I always have little to-do lists for myself and love my routines (ok that you might have known).

6.) I used to write all the time. Like stories and stuff. In like 5th grade I wrote almost 70 pages of a “novel.” Its terrible but I wrote it! Now I almost never write (not counting this blog of course).

7.) I’m superstitious. I believe in karma, and ghosts, and all that stuff. When I was a little baby my mom took me to an astrologer to have my charts read and stuff. I listened to a recording of it and pretty much everything she predicted about me was right! She said I would love to travel, not get along with my dad, and be really close to my mom. All true! There were tons of other things she said to that I don’t remember but they were all true!I’m not super religious, but I believe in some sort of “god.” Maybe not some guy in the sky with a white beard, but I believe that there is something more. I definitely believe in astrology, but I think it’s more than that too. I just don’t know what it is.

So there you go… and now I tag:

Kayla at Kayla.Eats.Healthy

Ann Claire at Ann Claire’s Healthy Adventures

Kelsey at CleanTeenKelsey

Court and Whit at TeensEat (do one each girlies!)

E 🙂

…was long. I read a ton of bio and Brave New World. The day just seemed drag on. It was oddly cold (no warmer than 70) and so I just felt slow and sleepy. It was  a day for tea and a good book, not summer reading, bio, and artificial light.

I did do the tea thing though! Mostly because I was really cold but it was so comforting too!

Yummmmm

In my favorite mug no less

Lunch was chocolatey overnight oats. With strawberries, blueberries, Kashi Golean, protein powder, some cottage cheese, and plenty of coco powder! It was majorly filling!

By 3:30 my brain and my belly desperately needed a snack (brain food!).

So I gave them an Apple Cranberry Bran Muffin (only 80 calories!) from Trader Joe’s with cottage cheese and pumpkin butter on top. I found the pumpkin butter in the back of a cabinet unopened. It’s so yummy and pumpkin-y!

And of course a good ol’ bowl o’ fruit (a peach, cherries, and strawberries)! Because no meal is complete with out fruits or veggies.

*drooling*

After a kick-ass kickboxing workout I wanted some major FOOD!

My creative juices were flowing during kickboxing (along with the sweat :P) and I dreamed up this beautiful thing.

*sings* You are so beautiful, to me...

Kidney beans, corn, onion, green and wax beans, canned tomato sauce, yellow pepper, and extra sharp cheddar… in a Flatout wrap and cooked in a “panini maker” (2 pans) and a salad for some freshness and green-ness.

All in all today was successful. I read a ton and ate some super good food! Now I am half delirious from being tired! I don’t know how I’m going to wake up at 5:30 when school starts. How I manage to get good grades with so little sleep is beyond me.

Nighty-night!

E

Sorry for not blogging all weekend. This has been a very interesting weekend. *this might get a little wordy so bear with me and there will be plenty of pictures later*

Friday night I was feeling really bad. Not sick but sad and frustrated and lonely.

I have been going to the same barn on Saturdays for over 10 years and the people there are practically my family. When I came back from Colorado I had discovered a lot about myself, who I want to be, weight loss, etc. I tried to explain this to them, they mean so much to me it was only natural to want to share what I learned with them the  same way I did with my mom. But as I was explaining to them how I learned that I don’t feel the need to change the world or write novels (which we have sort of jokingly talked about) but that I just want to help a few people and be happy, I was met with blank eyes. The kind of eyes that say “I can’t relate at all to what you are saying to me but I am going to smile and pretend that I do so I won’t hurt your feelings.” It hurt, not that they didn’t understand that’s not their fault, but that these people who mean so much to me can’t understand this huge and really important thing that happened to me and they can’t relate to the things I learned from it.

In Colorado I discovered this part of myself that really wanted to be more spiritual. I think that it was always there but it just became louder out there. When I say spiritual I don’t mean like going to church on Sunday kind of spiritual (although I have nothing at all against going to church or mosque, or temple) I mean Eat, Pray, Love kind of spiritual. This isn’t the kind of thing most 16 year olds are faced with so I had no idea what to do with this desire to meditate and learn more about the spiritual side of myself.

So there I was 11:00 pm Friday night on the couch with my mom bawling my eyes out. I felt really lonely and bored with my life. I missed backpacking where every day had meaning and I grew as a person. I know that I can’t have that everyday but I wanted to have it sometimes. Then mom mentioned that there is a Buddhist Sangha that met in an Unitarian Church about 20 minutes from my house. At first I thought, “I can’t be a Buddhist” but the idea of being able to really meditate and learn how to do it right with people who were also interested in meditation really stuck in my mind.

Fast forward to Sunday at 7:00 at night. There I was sitting in the basement of this church with a bunch of mis-matched people from all walks of life meditating and reading the Noble Eightfold Path.

It was a new experience and I really know almost nothing about Buddhism but I loved it and should you be in that church next Sunday at 7 you’d probably see me. I don’t know how it will fit into my life when school starts but if I find that it is really something that matters to me I know I can make it work.

So I know that was quite wordy so let’s get onto the food!

Rather than explain everything I’ve eaten since Friday I will simply show you…

Friday

Saturday

My very first Vegan Overnight Oats! With pumpkin, cinnamon, crasins, raisins, and almond butter!

Elementary school lunch! PB&J, sugar snap peas (with nutritional yeast), and applesauce.

Veggies, tomato sauce, and polenta (its hiding under the veggies)

Sunday

My Sunday Tradition: made with white flour and all! Protein powder is the only remotely healthy thing about these beauties!

Today

Bio :/

Mmmm my favorite standby lunch 🙂

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Oh! By the way, I know I haven’t been updating on my weigh-ins lately what with trips and stuff, but I lost .8 pounds this week. Not to bad. I think I have been gaining major muscle but I am trying to lower my calories a little bit so I can get back into the routine of consistently losing weight!

E 🙂